GUARD YOUR HEART!

He doesn’t call or anything since that night. What am I supposed to think? I know we don’t usually talk on Sundays but it’s Monday afternoon and still nothing. I can’t be mad at him for doing what I asked him to do. I just don’t know. I don’t know what to think, are we done, are we on a break. It will be hard to get back what we had, it seemed so special - - unique.

It’s Tuesday afternoon and still nothing, no text, no phone call. How can we go from talking 8 to 10 times a day, for hours at a time, to nothing? Sometimes, on Monday evenings he would at least say bye before he headed out of town. But he didn’t call, come by, and he didn’t ask me to come out to his job like usual….nothing. I feel some type of way. I don't know what to do with these feelings. I don’t know if we will ever get in touch with each other again, I’m not sure if I should be grateful that he hasn’t contacted me or what. So many questions. I guess I’m at the point where if I talk to him, I talk to him, if I don’t, I don’t. This just leaves me wondering was this my fault or what.

I called him after five days. He was surprised that I called but I was more surprised that he had not called. When someone says they care about someone, and they really do, why would it take sooo long to call. I feel like this has pulled us 3 steps back from where we were. I don’t feel that closeness that I felt before and when I tell him, he laughs. I didn’t find that amusing at all.

He says, “I think you are not guarding your heart”. Well, maybe not but don’t laugh!